My Testimony

Would you agree with me if I said that we were living in an age of deception? That our world is infatuated with humanistic idea’s and false ideologies. That things like the New Age movement, the emerging church, and Darwinism have crept not only into our societies but are in our churches, schools and homes? As many of you know these utopian ways of thinking are all around us and the reality of our Savior has become more of a bedtime story to our post modern society, rather than an assurance of faith and salvation. The World is attempting to eliminate any belief and existence in the one true God. And the sad part is, people are falling for it everywhere, even in the church. This soon included me and I began to fall for the worlds lies. I doubted God, His existence and reality. And sadly I became a skeptic.

In my earlier years, I was one of those who sat in church every Sunday and listened to the pastor teach year after year. I was raised in a Christian home and my Dad was a very strong Christian and still is today. For years I thought I was a Christian, I went to church, I said the prayer, I thought I believed. Yet, I was one who never truly committed my life to the Lord until years later.

There are so many people in and around the church who have heard the truth and may even understand it but, who have not yet embraced it and committed to it. That was me for a time.

To give you a little better understanding about why I had made the ‘decision’ for the Lord. Simply put, I didn’t want to go to hell. Who would want to go to hell after all! After all the horror stories you here about it. Heck I’ll say the prayer if it will keep me out of that horrible place. I needed my ‘fire insurance.’ And I got it the only way I knew how.

You see, for me, accepting Christ was all about what Christ could do for me. I mean he could surely save me from the pits of hell, but what I failed to realize was that it also required a complete sacrifice.

Now I knew from growing up that my life had to change, at least a little bit. So with my legalistic way of thinking I quite the big sins drinking excessively, cussing, partying, you know the big stuff. I then began to attend church on Sunday and pray before every meal. You know the basics. I thought I had this ‘Christian’ thing in the bag! For the next three years I played the part of Christian all too well. But what I failed to realize was that my life was at a slow decline. Overtime deception, doubt and false ideologies began to fill my life. Satan was at work and I developed strongholds that kept me from the Lord. I kept telling myself that I was fine, I said the prayer. I’m a good person. But I was only deceiving myself.

For three years I lived like this. Until one day God woke me up and I began to think that there has to be more to the Christ life than just doing Christian things. I knew deep down there was something wrong, I just couldn’t pin point it. So that night I prayed the prayer from Psalms 139:23, “Search me oh God and know my heart; try me and know my anxieties; and see if there are any wicked ways in me. Lead me in the way everlasting!”

Simply put, I asked God to pull the dirt out from my life, to show me the strongholds that kept me from him.  The funny thing about God is that he answered right away!

You see, the very next day I received a phone call from a “so called” Christian friend and she began questioning Gods existence. The things she said to me made me doubt Gods utter existence and I began to question God myself. Maybe what she was true, maybe these are just fables? After all how could they be real?

But you know what God showed me. That I had doubt all along. I couldn’t blame my doubt on her if it existed within me in the first place. So to be more frank, God made me come face to face with the fact that I didn’t believe in Him. I had allowed so much influence from the worldview way of thinking that God, had become nothing but a likely possibility, maybe it’s true!

It scared me that I didn’t believe in God, yet I knew the cure could only be found in God himself. So that night I took action and prayed. In fact for the next two months I prayed every night in my prayer closet for at least an hour a night. During this hard time in my life one verse carried me through. It was James 4:8, “Draw near to God and He will draw near to you.” So I thought okay God, if I draw near to you, then your promise is to draw back and I held tight to this verse because for these next couple of months, there was a real battle going on in my brain.

You see when I was in that closest praying to God. Satan would keep telling me that “Gods not going to answer you!” He even used my own verse against me! Look at you, Elissa you’re “Drawing near to God, but He is certainly not drawing near to you!” Night after Night after Night…he would tell me this! But you want to know the truth! God did not show me anything or talk to me or anything during that time. Not one word.  Satan kept whispering, God kept not answering. But you see God had a reason. God does not draw near immediately sometimes He wants us to seek Him out and He knew exactly what I needed.

The Bible says, “Out of the abundance of the heart we speak.” And when I was in the prayer closet that was exactly what I did. I said some pretty ugly things to God.  I told God to prove himself to me by showing me a verse, I asked him to magically write on the wall, I demanded Gods answer like I had authority, I even threatened to turn from Christ if he didn’t show Himself to me. Let me tell you! God pulled out some dirt and I needed sifting and lots of it. But you see, God wanted me to believe in him first, in His Reality. So he kept silent till he knew I was ready.

Finally at the end of those two long months. I gave up the battle. I yelled at the top of my lungs, “GOD! I quite! I can’t fight you any more! You win! I believe, I believe! Even if I don’t have all the answers!! Even if I don’t have anything to go off of! I’ll just do it!  –“I’ll BELIEVE!”All of a sudden with those words, I physically felt as if a huge weight had been lifted off my shoulders! Whoosh!! I could feel that bond breaking in my life and I had been set-free!

Then something powerful happened! God was true to His words in James. He spoke and gave me my life verse!

Hebrews 11:6- “But without faith it is Impossible to please God, for he who comes to God Must believe that He is!”

What a perfect verse for me! Now I am closer to God than ever before and my Christian walk has been at a steady incline.

** Please note, copyright 2012. Please do not copy this information without prior approval. Thanks.

** Click Here if you want to here my testimony via audio feed. (FYI – This was the first speech I ever gave).


13 responses to “Testimony

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  2. Wow Elisa I’m in tears, you shared what is in my heart, the very Truths that I’m seeking to stand up for, thank you for articulating them in a way that is not only Powerful but life changing.

    I decided today to let you Minister to me through your foundation of Love in Jesus and you have and are doing this, Thank you.

    I don’t know if you have read about my Teenage years that I Posted in My Blessed life on my Blog but as a young child of 8 I found Jesus, He was someone who Loved me and wanted to be my Friend and I Loved Him in my childlike way but I was deceived by Evolution teaching in High School and by my Mother and so I became Atheist in my head but never in my heart or I would not be sharing His Truth with you today.

    I would Love to share more with you Elisa about these years but will condense, my time as a new Christian was much the same as yours all outward, I became very confused too and amazingly like you I asked God to help me using the same Scripture as my focus as you did. God asks us to search for Him with all our heart and we will find Him and He will also find us, meaning He can then restore us to full fellowship with Him.

    Your Love for Him was always in your heart Elisa but as you shared it was covered up with the deception that Life brings we live in a fallen world but your foundation was strong, God kept your soul from falling away and so rejecting Him in your heart, which is the unforgivable sin.

    I’m Blessed to call you my Sister in The Lord and give heartfelt thanks to Him for you.

    Christian Love from us both – Anne

    • Thank you for your sweet words. And I do remember reading some about your testimony. Its amazing how you came from the life of an ‘Atheist’ into the life of Christianity. I myself could probably say the same, I wasn’t an ‘atheist’ in words, but rather in my head I probably doubted the same as they did, that is until God got a hold of me!! As he has you my friend!! Thank you again for your sweet words. You are an amazing person in the Lord.

  3. I read this testimony of yours at the right time… I’ve been a Christian all my life… my life’s situations and satan’s trap has always led me to backslide.. I’ve been confused a lot of times and I’ve learnt something today, may be God is speaking to me through your blog that need to draw close ti him and he will draw close to me !!

    May God use you continually!

  4. hello,
    thank you for your testimony. In a world where everything renforce anything that could keep you away from God I think it is very important to share the reality of people belonging to Christ.
    If you are intersted and have a spare hour you could also read my testimony on maxetcharline.blogspot .com. It is written in two languages: English and French. Sorry for my language mistakes.

    Let’s pray for the people of good will.
    May our Lord bless you Lisa and your family and everybody here reading.
    Hold on and don’t loose your courage.
    May Christ makes me and all of you braves in our resistence to the devil and his world.

  5. I am appalled by Obama, but you call yourself a Christian and you totally misrepresented his speech in Brussels by taking a quote out of context and thereby making him seem to say the opposite of what he said. You call yourself a Christian but you are a deceiver. May God judge you for your deceit. Look at the paragraph from which you took this quote, ad you will understand why I will do what I can to warn Americans about your dishonesty.

    “Those ideals have often been threatened by an older, more traditional view of power. This alternative vision argues that ordinary men and women are too small-minded to govern their own affairs, that order and progress can only come when individuals surrender their rights to an all-powerful sovereign. Often this alternative vision roots itself in the notion that by virtue of race or faith or ethnicity, some are inherently superior to others …”

    • That was noted on the video, please re-check it. And Although Obama was talking about the colonialists Ideals I do believe he had a deeper reason for what he said. Has a tyrant like him ever been known to talk that way about patriots? Heck No! Check his persona then go from there. But either way, I do encourage you to listen to the whole speech and decide for yourself. Its good to have all the facts.

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